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All previous entries in this journal have been friends locked. I used the mass security tool, so unfortunately there is not an easy way to leave certain posts out. If you have stopped by here only for fic, please be patient as I slowly unlock the posts that contain my fiction.

I Have a Dream

As a human being, this piece of writing never fails to move me with its beauty and inherent truth.

As a student of literature, this piece of writing never fails to amaze me with the skill and natural talent upon which is was produced.

I am grateful to have the opportunity to appreciate this speech today, even though it was written before I was born. Even more than that, I am grateful to live in a society (that despite its myriad of continuing problems), has, none-the-less, obviously been improved by these words and the hard work behind them (even if just a little bit).

I know to many it probably sounds cheesy, but I don't care, because I mean it from the bottom of my heart. I am usually such a bitter person, but this speech makes me feel hopeful, if even just for a little while.

Thank freaking goodness! That is all I have to say.

I spend a lot of time these days (in between my busy schedule) checking various feminist blogs. One of the regular blogs I go to is Holla Back New York City. This blog is a place for people (mostly women) to report their experiences with street harassment.

I found them after having a hard time with street harassment in the old neighborhood I lived in by MCC. I was harassed there on a daily basis, and was actually scared to leave my house after dark sometimes. It was pretty scary at times. I remember wondering what had changed in me that caused the increase in harassment (it took me a while to tie it to moving into that neighborhood, which I might add seemed pretty normal and still does). Of course, it wasn't me, but as usual in our society the victim is made to feel responsible for their own abuse.

Let me also add that moving has not erased the problem, it still happens but not nearly as much (thankfully).

Anyways my point is that they have linked to Stop Street Harassment, which is a book in the works on this social problem. The author is seeking respondents to a survey they hope to use as part of their research. If you have the time please take the survey here.

This is a under-appreciated problem and any information you can provide about your own experiences can only help to bring to light how damaging and frightening street harassment can be.

Wow. This election is turning out the be so freaking surreal.

To McCain I have one to thing to say:

Just because we followed Hillary doesn't mean we will follow whatever puppet with breast you slap up there. You see, it wasn't just because Hillary was a woman that we believed in her, it was so much more than that. Yes, that she was a woman was important, but that she believed in what was right was more important. That she wanted what we felt was best, not just for women, but for everyone in this country means more than one's biological sex. That Hillary didn't let her biological sex stop her is what made her so admirable but not the sole attribute that made her worthy of being the president of this country.

So McCain, you can take your brainwashed, patriarchal rulebook parroting political tool and go back to the 900-1800s. Thanks.

*donates more money to Obama*

Pakistan's Bhutto assassinated at rally

This makes me so very sad. I had such high hopes for what she could accomplish there, now... now I don't know. I'm just extremely upset by the whole damn thing.

This world really is a disgusting place.

It's about that time again... yep the day when I really show what a raving fangirl I am. I know it is silly, but I'm going to post it anyways. Happy birthday Gackt-sama <3

Happy birthday lexalot! I <3 you.

Despite the recent news posts by 6a, I am not confident that LJ is not currently a Christian fundamentalist boot licking for the sake of money grubbing piece of shit.

As a matter of fact this post seems to indicate that if LJ is not yet a piece of shit, it likely will be.

I understand the desire to make money, alas I hate watching something wonderful go to hell all in the name of it.

It makes me sad.

With that being said, I wonder what brad will do/feel when he returns from vacation and has seen the mess that 6a has made of his baby.

How I wish he had never sold LJ :(

I was going to post this as a comment to the most recent 'News' entry, alas I was too slow and the max amount of comments has been reached. Instead I suppose I'll have to vent here again.


I'm sure that when 6a bought LJ they never realized what vitriol fandom could spew at a whim, let alone when basically all of fandom has been wronged.

I'm also guessing they never realized how large or loud the community could be.

Lump fandom in with pedos and sickos and yeah people are going to be angry. You reap what you sow.

Thanks for posting some form of an update, but there are still many questions unanswered (such as why WFI was listened too but Perverted Justice, and actual paying customers were not).

Until these points are cleared up satisfactorily I’m sure the anger will continue.

Also until I get an answer I like, then you can bet your ass that I will not be renewing my paid account here. Fandom was once simple message boards and websites with little interaction. It can be again, and guess who loses out most?

YOU DO (6a).

When I first saw all the hub-bub about the recent permanent suspensions I withheld judgment and decided to sit back and watch the wank ensue. After all, I have been pretty silent on LJ recently. Being lazy and allowing everyone else to provide me entertainment instead of adding anything of my own, just seemed the thing to do at the time. I suppose it could be classified as lurking.

But now...?

WTF LJ? This whole thing is really starting to make me angry....

Especially this.

And if you don't want to click on the link and read the entire article, no worries, I'm just pissed enough to use copy & paste to assault my friends list with the most infuriating part:

"Our decision here was not based on pure legal issues," countered Six Apart's Berkowitz. "It was based on what community we want to build and what we think is appropriate within that community and what's not. We have an awful broad range of discussions and topics and other things going on in LiveJournal, and we encourage other broad-ranging conversations on all sorts of topics. This was a specific case where we felt there was not a reason (for these journals to stay online)."

Nice of LJ to let the media know that they feel is is OK to lump fandom journals in with genuinely fucked up material. Sorry, Six Apart, but Fan fic (even weird fan fic) =/= pedo-grooming/discussions/anythingfuckedlikethat. Nor does it encourage anyone to break any laws related to such things.

Also nice of them to notify the media, and yet have nothing to say to their paying clients.

Well I have something to say to them:

I WANT MY MONEY BACK BITCHES.

ETA

I read this article on CNN today:

Former child prostitute now saves others


It has really touched me. I wish I could express the full effect this short article has had on me.

I can't imagine how hard it must be for Somaly to revisit, every day, the horrors she had to live through as a child. Through helping these exploited children she is faced with her own horrifying past on a regular basis, and yet she does it anyways. Somehow she finds the strength to take what has damaged her and make it into a tool to help others. Her story is amazing, and heart breaking at the same time.

I am so happy to see that she can offer help to those who would otherwise have nobody, and at the same time I'm devastated that help is needed.

I’m devastated, that these atrocities are occurring on a regular basis all across the world, that anyone would do these horrible things, let alone to children.

That these things are being done even as I type is more than I can bear.

To think of what it must be like for Somaly and those that her help her... I only wish I had that kind of strength. I really believe that she is a woman that any person could be proud to look up to. She is the perfect role model.

I hope that Somaly's organization can make a difference, not just in Cambodia, but all over the world. The fact that she has already saved so many through her tireless efforts is a miracle. From the bottom of my heart I wish I could thank her for making this world a better place, one child at a time.

I know I promised this would be ready last weekend, but I was running a bit behind. This is for xnitelite, hope you don't mind the roughness of the story, it is riddled with my usual grammatical/stylistic mistakes unbeta'd and probably too short.

Fandom: Smallville
Pairing: Clark/Lex
Rating: Hard R

( Breakables and All )

Fandom: Spider-man comic-verse
Pairing: Peter Parker/Nate Grey (X-Man)
Rating: NC17
Disclaimer: They belong to Marvel
Summary: It's late, and Peter's apartment is empty again. Maybe he could use some company?
Acknowledgements: Much thanks to my beta readers tehomet and xandyrd.
Notes: This story makes reference to events that happened quite some time ago in the Spider-man and the now canceled X-Man books. Because I heard of these events second hand the continuity in this story might be slightly off from that of the comic books.

( Time for the Living )

Wrote a little something for scribblinlenore's Smallville Drabble-a-Thon but it is too long to post as a comment and as such doesn't exactly qualify as a drabble :P

So in that case I'll just post it here as a fic :D

Fandom: Smallville
Pairing: Clark/Lex
Rating: PG13
Genre: Humor/Angst (maybe)
Spoilers: Heat
Summary: Clark and Lex talk after the events of Heat.
Acknowledgements: Thank you to drkcherry for the quik beta and to scribblinlenore for inspiring me with her challenge.
Feedback: I would be lying if I said I didn't want it.

( Care for a Game? )

Here is the second response to this post. The others shall come soon, I haven't forgotten!

This is for drkcherry, who asked for Smallville, CLex or ChLex, and alien or mutant sex/fetish. I think it fits... somewhat anyways.

Fandom: Smallville
Pairing: Chloe/Lex
Rating: R
Genre: Humor
Disclaimer: SV is not mine. Also, I'm not as @#$$# as this fic my suggest, but yes my sense of humor is sick and stunted somewhere near the level of a 14 year old boy's.
Spoilers: None really, but it does allude to events from Season 4.
Summary: Chloe is special in the Smallville sort of way.
Acknowledgements: Thank you to my beta reader tehomet who was not frightened (much) buy this fic and even agreed to help. She takes no blame however for my decision to inflict it on the small amount of fandom that stops by my journal.
Feedback: Sure.


( Greenday )

Here is my first response to this post. The others shall come soon. My boss asked me to work Graveyard shift for the next three days, so it may take longer than I first thought. Sorry in advance!

For aelora. She asked for a suprise pairing/fandom, and Valentine's Day chocolate:

Fandom: Smallville
Pairing: Lexson
Rating: G
Disclaimer: SV is not mine. Hudson belongs to aelora
Spoilers: None, this is an AU of an AU. So really it never happened.
Summary: Lex and Hudson's first Valentine's Day is eventful.
Acknowledgements: Thank you to my beta reader tehomet who kindly took this job on with little notice and was lightening fast in her response. I <3 you tehomet. And also thank you to coffeesnob for the idea of the yummy bon bons.
Feedback: Sure!

( Chocolate Peanut Butter Bon Bons )

I know this fic is not anywhere near one of my normal fandoms, and that many on my friends list (are you guys still there?) will not be familiar with these books, but all the same I have decided to post it.

It was this series which finally broke me from my writers block. It has some of the most interesting characters and their powerful interaction seemed to demand a homage from me... so here it is. Comments would be muchly appreciated but not expected.


Fandom: C.S. Freidman's Coldfire trilogy
Pairing: Damien/Gerald sort of.
Rating: PG for creepiness
Disclaimer: not mine
Spoilers: Up to book 3 chapter 2
Summary: The relationship between Gerald and Damien has changed them both.
Acknowledgments: Thank you to my beta reader tehomet, who kindly read this even though she had never seen these books. You rock tehomet. Any remaining mistakes are solely my responsibility.

( Something Like Friendship )

This is my response to the LJ (INTER)NATIONAL PROTEST DAY orginized by dolimir. I protest the decleration of this week as National Marriage Protection week and all the bigotry it represents.

American Hero

Fandom: Smallville
Pairing: Clex
Rating: G - PG
Disclaimer: not mine at all.
Spoilers: Nothing
Summary: Superman makes a point.
Acknowledgements: Thank you to my beta reader tehomet who not only provided me wonderful feedback for this story, but helped with many of my constant repeated grammar offenses and did it all on extra super short notice. I super <3 you tehomet
Feedback: Oh yeah, that would be extra super nice!

( fic )

Lost and Gained

Fandom: Smallville (Girl!Clark AU)
Pairing: Lexson
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: SV is not mine. Hudson belongs to aelora and is used with permision.
Spoilers: My First Taste up to Ep 9
Summary: Hudson used to like the stars. Now she likes Lex.
Acknowledgements: Thank you to my beta readers coffeesnob and tehomet. Any remaining mistakes are solely my responsibility. Also a big, huge thanks to aelora for letting me play in her world! Have I told you lately that I <3 you?
Note: Fic is a reponse to the Lexson Summer Fun Challenge.

( Fic )